Dear family, friends and loved ones.
As you know, these past weeks at TREK have been a roller coaster. Emotions everywhere, thoughts flying all over the place, and a heart that just wanted to be settled.
God has truly lead me in a direction and I feel very at peace with this decision.
I will be participating in the TREK training, but I will not be going to Brazil this year.
This might come as a shock to some of you. I will try to explain as best as I can.
I feel that I am not ready to partake in this adventure right now in my life. I have much more to learn about my emotions and how to deal with them. I can tell you honestly that if I went to Brazil, I would not be able to give my whole heart to what I would be doing. That would not be unfair to my team, the missionaries we would be working with, and the people I will encounter. I feel like If I went, I would be the one that would need the most tending to, and not the beautiful people in Brazil, that that is just simply not fair. I just don't feel ready right now and do feel like God is leading me to stay here.
I want to tell you that I'm very at peace with this decision and I do feel like this is the right choice right now.
I was asked if I will regret this. I thought long and hard, and this is what I though. I will miss terribly not getting on the plane with the Brazil team. It will be very hard, but I know in my heart I don't think I will regret it. I look back and see all the pain, heartache, and unbearable moments and know that I'm am making the right decision.
I know with all my heart that God will use me here wherever and whatever he leads me to do.
I will be finishing the training because it is such amazing, life long tools that we are learning. I have learned so much and I'm applying it all to my life.
If you have any question please feel free to e mail me and I will do my best to answer them for you. (firstname.lastname@example.org)
I once again thank you for all the support you have given. It truly means the world to have people in my life that supported me with any decision that I was to make.
With Much love
4 years ago